Hey, it's me!

I have just been reading through these posts. I haven't been here for a very long time. It's interesting to see what I was thinking about a couple of years ago. Basically, I haven't changed. I still think Bush was one of the worst presidents in our history, the war in Iraq is a mistake and most people are stupid. Not you, of course, you're reading my blog after all. I still have a shortage of money, work at the same place and haven't moved yet. But, a lot of people have it worse than me. I don't forget that.

Stay or Go?

Today I told my boss that I interviewed for a job. He was quite shocked, although he knows I am continually frustrated with this company. So is he. The difference is that he is only 2 years from retirement. I have no hope of ever retiring. Those 10 years I took to raise my kids put me at least that many years behind everyone my age who didn't take time off for kids. I have to think about my future. I also need to make more money. He had said he would try to get more money for me in January when it is expected that there will be some personnel changes. One of those will be our assistant getting canned (finally!). That means more work for me, which is fine because I am bored out of my skull right now. The business is beyond slow and I hate sitting around doing nothing. He said that I just need to hang on for a couple of years and then I will move to his office. That's not guaranteed. I don't make any assumptions about that. The main problem is that our management is weaker than granny's tea. There is not one good manager in the entire company. Including mine. There are people who know about our products and have expertise that is useful to the company, but not one of them understands how to manage people. The president makes snide remarks about how ineffective our sales department is. He is the only one in any position to change that. Why doesn't he do something! Anyway, my phone interview was a couple of weeks ago. There are two positions open and the company is international and very well respected. I imagine they are inundated with resumes. At least I hope that's why I haven't gotten another call. I don't know what I will do for sure if they offer me the position. Starting over again does not appeal to me. Making more money and working for a big company does.

Good Thing This Isn't My Job

I forget about this blog for months at a time. I am in the midst of a really lousy period in my life. I am stressed about so many things that I am seriously considering seeing a therapist. My daughter got in another accident and totaled her car. I am grateful that she did not get hurt. I am not thrilled about going through all of the attendant bureaucratic nonsense that comes with a motor vehicle accident. She was already paying a scandalous sum of money for car insurance. I don't know how she will be able to afford it after this. I am trying to figure out where to live. I want to get out of this building, but the idea of having to pack up and move makes me ill. Then there is my job. I am bored out of my skull. I also need more money. I have sent out a few resumes, but actually fear getting called for an interview. This would mean starting all over again someplace new. Jesus.

Some Men

I have met some stellar men in the past year. I met them in cyberspace, unfortunately. I mean, I'm glad I met them, but I would rather they were in my real life and not just my web life. I have to say that these guys are real men; smart, funny, aware, talented. Of course, cyberspace is somewhat idealistic, right? There is no need to show all of your warts. In fact, if you want to, you can create a really outstanding persona to put on display out there. I hope I am savvy enough to cull out the phonies, but maybe these fellas are really good actors. Nah. I think they really are good men. They are guy friends. I don't have romantic notions about them. I admire them and value them and feel like I can tell them things. And I have. Little bits here and there about my life. They are always supportive. One man had to disappear for a while. I think his wife got fed up with his spending so much time on the computer. I know I would be jealous if my husband spent a lot of time on a web site chatting with women. Even though it's innocent, it still takes people away from their lovers and families. I don't know how long we will keep up our chats, but I hope it's a long time.

A Stellar Day

Today was a beautiful day. The sun was shining. It was about 72 degrees. You couldn't ask for more. I spent the day on the lakefront, listening to my friend's band play an outdoor gig. They sounded great. The people-watching was spectacular. The nuts were ample. Sometimes, you can forget how many crazy people there are in the world. Stopping to watch them is a good reminder. When you are trying to understand why there are traffic jams and why Bush is president, you have to remember all of the whackjobs out there.